Blank.

I cant seem to do anything. Nothing at all. & I hate routines : wake up in the morning, train, school and then back home again & everything starts again like a cycle. I just cant. I just hate it. I hate routines but what can I do? Felt extremely lifeless in school too because I didnt know what to do. Felt like Im the stupidest among everyone in school. It isnt like secondary school where people think you're good in art. Im just bullshit in artschool. Felt like an amateur in art but fark no! I got more experince in it than those who actually didnt take art in their primary & secondary days. Its really depressing when there's people doing better than you in school. I JUST CANT HELP IT. Please can y'all just let me live secretly in school n just gimme a cert at the end of the day? T___T & whatever... I wanna do it my way but then the lecturers would start beating around the bush.. IM SICK & TIRED! & when I didnt do it their way, they say its hard for us to score. OKAY I ADMIT. Im sensitive over the grades. BUT HOW? T___T 12:37AM Im here blogging, came home without doing anything, sitting there stoning waiting for miracle to come. BUT NO THIS IS NOT GONNA WORK. Im stressed but I dunnoe what Im stressed about. My mind's superb damn blank now I could stare at my wall for hours, I'd still think its interesting. Shit Im mental.
 TILL THEN SEE YA, ADIOS.